I was supposed to feel like a princess that night, but all I felt was the weight of a secret so heavy it made my ribs ache. My father, Harrison Kingsley, raised a crystal champagne flute and tapped it with a tiny silver spoon, and the murmur of two hundred guests in the grand ballroom of Chicago’s Graystone Hotel faded into silence. The chandeliers above us dripped with light, and the air was thick with the scent of roses and expensive perfume. He smiled at me—that dazzling, public smile he wore like a tailored suit—and announced to the room that I, his daughter Evelyn, had turned eighteen and was finally ready to be a woman. The applause was immediate, like a wave breaking. I smiled back, because that was what Kingsley daughters did. We smiled when we were happy, we smiled when we were sad, and we smiled when our hearts were pounding with fear.