Until that night.

The night Lauren left a pregnancy test on the dining room table. Two pink lines. Clear. Bright. Like two cold blades slicing through the air.

She spoke very slowly.

‘I’m pregnant, Nathan.’

I stood motionless, as if someone had drained all the gravity from my body. Fourteen years. Fourteen years ago, I had closed that lock myself. The document from the clinic was still in my desk drawer.